Sunday, December 9, 2012

Quantum Paleo, Day 9

Day 9, and I'm down 5.6 pounds.  I'm tempted to say "painlessly".  There have been a few days where I was "paleo plus latte" as I managed my caffeine... this morning as I write this I am having coconut milk in my coffee.  It's pretty amazing. 

I've been a dairy junkie for a long time.  I'm amazed that I haven't really missed the cheese this time.  I've been eating every few hours as they recommend, and worked on not letting myself get too hungry (because the bad decisions that come from that are no fun at all). 

I even went to a work holiday party on Friday night and the next day the scale was down. 

Why is it different this time from the last time I tried paleo?  I'm thinking its those 3 gluten free weeks right before I started paleo, where I substituted GF flour for old favorites.  Also, I'm committed to 21 days, not the rest of my life, and my plan is to have a gluten free week over Xmas, and then back to paleo for another 21 days at that point.  I'm also not being a nazi about it all this time, either.  I've used a little soy sauce on something at one point, and at the holiday party I had a steak and didn't worry that the seasoning wasn't certified gluten free.  I even had 2 wedges of red potato with the steak.  And a chocolate covered strawberry for dessert off the tray of other "goodies" that others were having.

I'm usually a total sweet addict and sweets haven't been calling.  I've been having a tiny bit of dairy free chocolate chips in raw coconut butter about every second day, and that has helped. 

The most amazing thing to me was that when V and I were out holiday shopping last night, he had a low sugar incident (he's insulin dependent)  and so we bought him a couple of candy bars.  I thought about having one too, but they really didn't appeal to me.  I wondered who this alien being was who had taken over my brain.  Not interested in an excuse to have a Hershey bar?  Really?

An average day for me has been:
Breakfast: 2 eggs plus veggies cooked in coconut oil and some bacon fat.
Snack:  2-3 sausages, sometimes with a little sweet potato; occasionally a latte at this point (3 days out of 9)
Lunch:  Meat, Veggies and Spices:  My favorite lunch has been a chicken curry dish I made with onions, apples, and tomatoes.
Snack: Apple with Almond Butter.
Dinner:  Meat, Veggies and Spices: My favorite dinner so far has been Paleo Beef Stew, made with carrots, onions and tomatoes.  The Rotisserie Chicken I bought and had with a little broccoli was really great too.  And the night we went to smash burger:  I got a burger with lettuce instead of a bun, and a bunch of veggies - spinach, tomatoes, cukes, avocado, and some broiled portobellas. 
Snack: If I'm hungry before bed, I've been having the raw coconut butter. 

According to my fitness pal, I've had anywhere from 1400 to 1900 calories in a day.  I've had less than 200 grams of carb in most days, and under 300 grams of carbs any day we're talking about since the 1st when I started this wonderful craziness.

I'm feeling the restriction of my band - which definitely felt tighter as I gained this weight - and I am working with it, and it all feels amazing.  I've had fewer aches and pains this week too.

Goals for the next week include more water!  and hopefully more steps (I have a fitbit).  I'm not doing the workouts he recommends in Quantum Paleo.  Frankly, I feel that dragging this extra hundred pounds on my carcass means I need to approach exercise with caution.  I carried something heavy up three flights from the car last night and I had to sit down and catch my breath when we got into the apartment.  I still have a long way to go.  But I'm back on the journey, and I don't feel hopeless anymore.

I'm a year and a half past my lapband surgery, and I had been pretty angry that, while it cleared up my health issues, it still left me with all my weight to lose.  I think I finally have it.  I will wait and see, but this is pretty amazing.

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Day 1 Quantum Paleo, 21 Days

It's not totally normal for me to put my heart out there.  I think part of the reason
I stopped blogging is that as I ran into difficulties with my lapband, it became harder to post.  The fact that the band has solved a large number of my health problems is good.  The fact that I haven't really lost any weight is sad.  I'm tired of being this big, and a year and a half after the band placement, I'm still having the same struggle, the same issues. 

So I'm going to break with my personal tradition and start to post again.  Today is Day 1 of Quantum Paleo's 21 Day Challenge.  Unfortunately, I am not totally prepped - so hopefully the fact that I have to put aside or freeze things that are merely gluten free and get my part of the kitchen ready for this 3 week journey - will not be an issue.  I have given myself the option of this being day zero if I really need it.  But I'm hoping to gently slide myself into this regimen.

I've actually told several people that today was the day, which is also unlike me.  We will see.

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Happy October!

I'm not even going to say that I am back.  I'm just going to post and we'll see if I post again. 

I'm not where I had hoped to be with my weight, over a year after my surgery.  I have most of my weight still to lose, and this sometimes makes me sad.  I have learned a lot about myself during this time, and I am still glad that I had the surgery.  My health is much improved since the surgery, and now I need to deal with my emo eating so that I can progress further.

It is difficult to come back to the same blog and continue.  Part of me thinks a new fresh clean blog would be SO much better. (rolls eyes).  I am on a path, and there's really no need to devalue where I have walked in the past.

I am putting down sugar and weighing myself again.  I am excited with many other parts of my life, and I am blessed.

Monday, February 13, 2012

I'm back...

After months of shamelessly ignoring my blog, I'm writing an entry.  Part of it is that my weight loss has been slow; part of it was the whole job search and the fact that I couldn't actually write about it, since my identity is not really secret. 

Now that I'm 3 months at the new job, I think its safe to come out and play again.

Watch this space for details.

Saturday, August 13, 2011


BYOC – Bring Your Own Crazy – 5 questions you can copy and paste to your own blog if you so desire – in an effort to get to know your fellow bloggers better and to give your blog brain a break! Brought to us by Draz


1. I have to do some MAJOR cleaning tonight…which is prompting me to ask…what is the absolute worst thing you hate to clean or cleaning chore you hate the most? (vacuuming, dusting, laundry, toilets, floors, etc.)

I would have to say my least favorite thing is the oven. In fact, my daughter does it, and waits till I'm out of the house to do it. I don't know what I'm going to do when we get a duplex building and I have my own kitchen, I may have to pay someone....

2. Brown or Black? Fly or Drive? Hot dog or Burger? Gold or Silver?

I love black and brown both, but I'm hoping to love some other colors now that I'm going to be a size where they won't make me look like a large wad of chewing gum...

Hmmm.... do I have to be the one driving? If I get to go with V and he drives, road trips are fun. If we're talking me going somewhere, I think I'd rather fly. V and I have discussed getting an RV when we are old and grey and driving all over the South West. Perhaps I'm just indecisive.

Burger, especially bison burger.

Gold mostly, although I've been branching out into silver. This band journey thing is making me change. Sometimes I don't even know MY answers to Draz's questions.  Sometimes I totally freeze and by the time I can think about it again, its days too late for even me to post a BYOC. 

3. Repeat question: I'm going to pick a person not knowing your relationship with them or even if a relationships exists – and you then try to describe that person in 5 short sentences/words.

Maternal Grandmother
Divorced back in the 30s so had to live with her mother
only adult in my life who loved me unconditionally when I was young
Used to get her picture taken in a camera store and then send them to me as post cards
Used to call me monkey face.
Died suddenly in 1984 and I'm still not over it.

4. Even if you don't have kids, how do you feel about kids in multiple sports during their school years? Were you in MULTIPLE sports all during school? Forced or by choice?

I never actually got to play on sports teams. Not that I wanted to. But my parents wouldn't have wanted me to do something that let me get out of the house, cost money, and meant they had to drive somewhere. I'm not being a drama queen, I had seriously stinky parents, especially my mother, and I no longer care who knows it.

My girls both did dance for a while, and when E was in high school she did capoeta, which is a martial art. J was all theatre all the time, which is not a sport, but I drove her all over the place for it until she got her license, and then I loaned her my car. Oh, except when J was in about 3rd grade she did Poms, which is like Cheerleading, and I took her to practices and went to all the games.  I've always hated sports or anything done in a team, except theatre,  so I'm afraid I didn't really encourage it when the kids were younger.  But if they had wanted it I would have worked to make it happen. 

5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in real life and in blog land.

I think I only blogged once this week. Life got away from me.

Life has been expanding this week. My boss was on vacation, which often guarantees a crazy, crazy week. Also, I saw my PCP for the first time since April or May and so she got to see all of my weight loss at once, so that was fun (I have blogged about my doc visit in an earlier post so I will refrain here).

I went out and was social with people, as well as going to the gym a lot, so I am tired, sore, and short on sleep. But happy. LOL. I was actually awake till midnight on Wednesday, which never happens to me. (First V and I went out with this huge group of people till almost 10, then we drove home and couldn't stop talking to each other. Him too, not just me. For realz.)  And I was funny and silly and people hugged me at this group we were at, and it was all good. It was not a group that knows me well, but the last time I saw most of them was also April, so many people noticed I seemed healthier. I'm still at a weight that I have been at several times this decade, so no one will think anything of it for another 10 or 20 pounds, I'm afraid... 

And I got an iPhone Friday afternoon, and I'm still learning how to use it.

In health, my weight stayed the same and I'm at times fearful that my band is too tight. I just got a scrip for a new tummy med from my doc because I'm experiencing some reflux. I've been coughing for about a week or so. I have a doc appt next week, supposed to be for a fill, but perhaps will be an unfill? I don't know. Haven't wanted to think too much about it. Been afraid I was imagining it.  I don't know if reflux means my band is too tight, or if its just that reflux runs in my family, and maybe the band didn't fix it like I thought it did.  Hmmm.  Questions for the nurse when I see her on Wednesday.  

Thanks for reading my crazy, of which I haz plenty. 

Friday, August 12, 2011

Too busy to blog?

Sorry I have been AWOL guys, my life has been crazy.   Today I am skipping morning gym since I am fighting off a cold.  I'm drinking EmergenC Immune stuff and hoping its all my imagination.

Anyway - I don't know who this woman is who gets up and goes to the gym at 6 AM to do the treadmill for half an hour... LOL.  Maybe I was replaced by an alien.   I'm actually exercising so much that my weight hasn't changed in over a week but I can fit into some smaller pants, a phenomenon I'd only ever read about.   I actually have a workout wardrobe. Did I mention that I am learning Zumba?  Who IS this woman?  Seriously, this has never been me before.

Never mind that, I've been having a social life too.  Even though work is so crazy and mind numbing that I don't wanna discuss it.  I've been going out after work and occasionally meeting friends for coffee before work.  And contacting more friends I haven't seen to schedule a get-together.  Hard to picture for this anti-social person.

Today is a big day for me, I may be getting my first iPhone.  I've been waiting for my corporate Blackberry so that I don't have to worry about learning to use the interface of the iPhone while I'm on call.  Plus I think a division of work and home sounds like a better plan, after a few years of trying it combined.  And I love the thought that the iPhone should backup using iTunes if I'm understanding this all correctly.  

So of course last night I had to get on iTunes and check out free apps.  I downloaded about 20 that I desperately need.  LOL.  Really, this thing is not a phone, its a small easily carried laptop.  If anyone is using a blog app please let me know, that might be fun.  But I am going to be testing diet tracker apps and all that.  So very exciting!  I have been a Blackberry gal for over a decade.

And BTW I am proud of myself - I have lasted through almost the whole week without whining about my bestie being on vacation and I've managed not to text her.  It's new for me to have a work bestie because I've been such a loner.  My boss has been on vacay this week too so I've been SO busy I can barely find time to pee, never mind take a break with anyone so I suppose its all for the best.  Sigh.

A couple of times this week I have hit over 12,000 steps on my fitbit.  The addition of the gym to my crazy days at work have given me new high numbers.  I am an exercise person.   I'm so totally amazed by the whole thing.  I actually miss my gym when its closed on Sundays.

I saw my doctor on Monday, my PCP, for the first time since before my surgery.  She was very pleased with everything.  And we talked about my liver stuff too and she was very comforting to me about it.  She said that sometimes morbidly obese people develop a non alcoholic, non contagious fatty liver.  If my cholesterol was high, my doc would have recommended I take a statin to improve things (so I'm glad its low because I am totally again statins, I think they are dangerous... ) But my cholesterol was 107!!!  My bad to good cholesterol ratio isn't as good as it could be, but since I've morphed into ExerciseGal she isn't worried about that.  So the best news was that my doc thinks that just by living this new healthier life I am living, my liver will get healthy as a side effect, no meds needed.  Wow.  

The contrast was painful and yet funny.  When I last saw my doc, it was in April or maybe May, and I couldn't catch my breath.  That was the visit when she proscribed my portable nebulizer so I could carry it with me.  I was wearing a pad because I was coughing so much I needed backup.  I had reflux so bad I couldn't eat anything with any spice at all.  I was miserable, actually, and at one point in our visit I think I was crying because I really felt like I was dying.  So this time, I'm talking away to her, and she asks about exercise, and I tell her about how I've already been to the gym in the morning and done half an hour treadmill and weight machines for my legs (I vary by day, legs and arms).  She looked at me funny, almost to see if I was serious.  Then I showed her my fitbit and explained how it works.  LOL.  This woman has been my doctor for over 10 years and I've never been this young and strong. My blood sugar was perfect, my blood pressure was normal, even though I drove in traffic to get to my appointment.  My vitamin levels on my blood tests were good.  I had healthy blood tests.  !!! :)

This week was my 2 month bandiversary on the 9th also, by the way.  And I have to say, the band has already done so much for me that its amazing.  Can't believe its only been 2 months. I am a whole new me, and I'm so grateful to be here.  My life is amazing.  A miracle. A blessing.   I'm so glad I got a band.  When I think of how I might have made a different choice, ah well don't even think about it!!!!

Friday, August 5, 2011

Joined a new gym

So, after several weeks of mostly getting to the rec center on the weekends, I realized that a 20 minute each way drive in the morning wasn't going to work for me.   I've given in and joined a gym less than a mile from my apartment building.  It's just for women.  I'm excited because it has zumba and other classes as well as the machines and weights, which I want.  I went last night and did legs.  Tonight I meet with someone to do arms.  And my calendar has a zumba class on it for Saturday!  I have a gym bag packed ready to take to the car when I leave this morning.

I can't believe its me who is saying this stuff.  And happy about it.  

I know I haven't blogged much lately.   There's something going on in my personal life that doesn't need airing in blogland, especially since my identity isn't hidden all that well.  Everything will be fine, though, no worries.  Sorry to be so mysterious, but I'm hoping that if I blog about my not blogging, then I'll blog again.

I'm feeling really good after my fill.  The usual side effects of gas and re-learning when my tummy is full is still with me, but I feel good.  Strong.  Healthy.  Happy.

If my tummy would stop gurgling already!  This time I'm going to keep track of how long it takes for the gas to subside.  I'm still having it today, Friday, but the fill was only Wednesday morning.

Have a good day, all, and I hope to make time to BYOC and also more about stress relief that doesn't involve food, this weekend.