So yesterday afternoon I ate everything in my lunch bag that I had brought for work and still didn't really feel full. I kept drinking water and wondering if it was a psych issue. But I'm on soft foods still you know, the ones often referred to as sliders and so I eventually became convinced that they were indeed slip sliding away and not holding the full feeling at all.
When I got home I pulled out some of the roast pork I had slow cooked the other day, with the theory that it at least was the item I was allowed to eat that actually had the most heft to it, so to speak. I weighed out my 2 ounces and sat down to chew, chew, chew. I finished it and had a moment of panic as I realized I still felt hungry. But I regained my calm and set my "kitchen timer" for about 25 minutes with the theory that the brain runs behind the stomach. I turned on a TV show and set out to ignore the hunger feeling. And sure enough, we got to about 15 minutes into the timer and I started feeling.... full, still a new sensation that I'm not sure I know what its supposed to feel like. As the time went on I felt more full. By the time the timer rang its little bell, I was stuffed. And an hour or more later when I talked to V I was still stuffed.
The most amusing thing, of course, is that as I was lying down to go to sleep, I snagged my Blackberry and pulled up myfitnesspal, because I was thinking of all those things I ate trying to get full and OMG how many calories was that? And its little status said, "You have 55 calories left today." ...!! Which of course means I was finally over 1200 for the first time since the surgery, but still. We are talking about a gal who used to eat 3000 calories and still be hungry. I slept better than I usually do, and I didn't wake up to eat in the night - just to turn off the A/C.
This is going to work.