I am having a less than stellar week. There has been a lot of stress. And I haven't been to the gym since Sunday. I know I have been logging a lot of steps on my fitbit, but that doesn't make up for a really good half hour of exercise. And of course I haven't done the machines. Sigh.
If I keep being unable to leave the house at oh dark thirty, then... I will have to work out after work.
Of course, I had the day from heck on Monday. So yesterday my stomach was so bad I thought I needed an unfill. I called and talked to my totally awesome fill nurse who suggested I have a soft foods day considering the stress on Monday and the fact that I could, in fact, be having PMS. (I'm perimenopausal, so its hard to tell, but I had my last period 38 days ago so... ) I think my tummy is doing better this morning - no nausea, just that tight morning feeling... I have a softish lunch and some snacks, and then by dinner I should be ready for some other foods.
I confess that I don't know, really, how to have an exercise program that works for me. I've never done it (and no, I don't want a personal trainer. signing up to get one is usually what makes me resign from whatever gym I belong to). But I will figure this out. I'm going to make appointments for myself on my calendar. Maybe early morning just isn't reasonable right now. I'm having so much trouble sleeping. I don't need to be perfectionistic either. No one said I have to do it every day. 5 days a week of a half an hour of sweating, that's all. I can do this!
I confess that I keep running across blogs and threads where people denigrate WLS and its pissing me off, and today I wrote polite factual comments to several people who probably don't give a cr*p about reality. But I'm tired of hearing that with a lapband you don't have to work at it. This is work!
I confess that I am having a week where I wish no one knew about the surgery. Even the supportive people. Maybe I am having PMS. I'm grouchy!
I confess that certain people at my office are annoying me, and I'm dragging my feet about going to work because of it. I was late yesterday.
I confess that now, since its time to shower, dress, and go to work, I suddenly want to go to the gym.
ok I'm done now. Time for a shower.