|Twas the Night Before Surgery|
I'm having lap band surgery because I'm morbidly obese, and it's becoming harder and harder to walk around. I want to write about what life was like before the band, so I never forget.
I had GERD so bad that at night when I would lie down to sleep, the stomach acid would often come roaring up my throat and I would wake up feeling as though I was drowning. This would set off my asthma, at night and also all day long and I couldn't breathe. I had to carry a portable nebulizer wherever I went.
My knees, back and ankles hurt so much that in the last 6 months, I had to give up squaredancing, and actually I stopped walking places and drove instead. I stopped going to see people, too, because everything was hurting so much.
I could never tell what clothes would fit. Honestly, I felt as though I would wake up and be 5 pounds heavier randomly. I felt as tho the weight gain made no sense. Clothes I had bought the night before would not fit in the morning when I would try and wear them to work.
I was hungry all the time, including 20 minutes after I finished eating. I would try and diet and it was torture. Yet if I ate, since my stomach was full, I would feel ill. And I would crave ridiculous things, like chocolate zingers, and then I would eat them and my stomach would hurt. And my guts would hurt too.